Retrospective...

Exactly a year ago series of events turned my life upside down..

Till that time I thought I was in a stable relationship.. Even though the person I dated wasn't the best one around I was sort of submitted to my faith and content with my life.. What I couldn't see then was I was slowly destroying myself without me even knowing about it.  The people around me saw it and try to warn me but I rudely chased them away..

I should have seen the early signs.. She only wanted to be there till her father's surgery was over.. I gave her close to 350,000 for the operation when there were NOT a single person to give her a cent..  NONE of her so called buddies who ganged up against me didn't even show up.  What did she tell when I reminded her during the breakup,

 "You were my bf and it is expected of you"

(I expected things from her which never occurred.)

I know for a fact that if the situation is other way around she wouldn't do a thing to help me.  She would be the first person to jump a sinking a ship.

Those were the lessons I learnt (hard way).

Obviously I was in tatters last year.. I was a man with a broken soul and a shattered heart.  A lost soul who didn't know how to start over. Yes, I tried to reach out without an iota of shame or any respect for myself.  I was beaten down and trampled upon more each time.

I was in a very deep abyss, dark all around not a shed of light and a very cold place..  Then I looked up and I saw tiny ray of light very far away.  It  gave me some hope, strength and courage.  It told me "you may have lost the battle but war is still ranging on, don't give up just yet.".

I got up on my feet, checked my surroundings and assessed my situation.  Then I laid down my priorities to achieve in a year.  Where I want be at the end of December - 2014.

1.  I was grossly overweight. My BMI was 30 and it was in "obese" range.  So I wanted to bring it down to 24.  In order to achieve it I have to loose close to 24 kgs.

2. Academic qualifications.  Beef up my professional certification.

3. Career progression.

4. Enjoy life.  Travel, meet new people, develop a new skill.

I set on tackling each of those tasks with unwavering determination and motivation.

What fueled it ?

The "PAIN". ( first couple of months).

After couple of months I realized, everything seems to be alright without her.  All this while I was blinded and suffering myself.  The decision she took was the best thing ever happened to me.

Things I set motion a year ago will not stop here.. I want continue these on for years to come.  These will be four pillars of my life.

From next month onward I'll be turning a new page in my life, will start a new chapter.

All I wanted to say is,

 I'm ready for the future challenges. 

200 km...

Well yes I achieved another target I set myself in running.. 200 km.. It took me 22 hrs.. My average speed is 9.1 km/h.  Not bad for a guy who couldn't run 100 m beginning of the year..

This is excluding cross fit training I do at torrington..

I just feel fantastic.. and more determined to continue further.. always challenge myself..