Last 3 years..

I haven't written a blog post in almost 2 years.  I was quiet busy and occupied.  However, I have never forgotten about this blog and always thought write something. I found some time after a long time.

It's quiet funny how fast the time moves on. Event though, I didn't feel two years pass by so fast still two years is a really long time... I really don't know where to start. Mostly I used this blog to vent feelings.. It may be because that I never quiet had any shattering experiences in last 2 years.

I have been married for just over two years.. It's the best experience of my life.. I have found a friend whom I could trust and love unconditionally.. Someone who tolerate me with all my weaknesses and still love me without asking anything back..

I have had relationships in the past.. It all ended in heartache.. I loved people who I thought loves me back.. I learnt from those relationships and all those heartache made me better a man.. Those relationships showed my flaws and made me stronger.

I believe everything happens for a reason.  I can go on and on about last 2-3 years.. I have let it go those bad memories.. I just feel great.. Loving wife, loving parent, loving sister, loving in-laws, and loving friends..

Retrospective...

Exactly a year ago series of events turned my life upside down..

Till that time I thought I was in a stable relationship.. Even though the person I dated wasn't the best one around I was sort of submitted to my faith and content with my life.. What I couldn't see then was I was slowly destroying myself without me even knowing about it.  The people around me saw it and try to warn me but I rudely chased them away..

I should have seen the early signs.. She only wanted to be there till her father's surgery was over.. I gave her close to 350,000 for the operation when there were NOT a single person to give her a cent..  NONE of her so called buddies who ganged up against me didn't even show up.  What did she tell when I reminded her during the breakup,

 "You were my bf and it is expected of you"

(I expected things from her which never occurred.)

I know for a fact that if the situation is other way around she wouldn't do a thing to help me.  She would be the first person to jump a sinking a ship.

Those were the lessons I learnt (hard way).

Obviously I was in tatters last year.. I was a man with a broken soul and a shattered heart.  A lost soul who didn't know how to start over. Yes, I tried to reach out without an iota of shame or any respect for myself.  I was beaten down and trampled upon more each time.

I was in a very deep abyss, dark all around not a shed of light and a very cold place..  Then I looked up and I saw tiny ray of light very far away.  It  gave me some hope, strength and courage.  It told me "you may have lost the battle but war is still ranging on, don't give up just yet.".

I got up on my feet, checked my surroundings and assessed my situation.  Then I laid down my priorities to achieve in a year.  Where I want be at the end of December - 2014.

1.  I was grossly overweight. My BMI was 30 and it was in "obese" range.  So I wanted to bring it down to 24.  In order to achieve it I have to loose close to 24 kgs.

2. Academic qualifications.  Beef up my professional certification.

3. Career progression.

4. Enjoy life.  Travel, meet new people, develop a new skill.

I set on tackling each of those tasks with unwavering determination and motivation.

What fueled it ?

The "PAIN". ( first couple of months).

After couple of months I realized, everything seems to be alright without her.  All this while I was blinded and suffering myself.  The decision she took was the best thing ever happened to me.

Things I set motion a year ago will not stop here.. I want continue these on for years to come.  These will be four pillars of my life.

From next month onward I'll be turning a new page in my life, will start a new chapter.

All I wanted to say is,

 I'm ready for the future challenges. 

200 km...

Well yes I achieved another target I set myself in running.. 200 km.. It took me 22 hrs.. My average speed is 9.1 km/h.  Not bad for a guy who couldn't run 100 m beginning of the year..

This is excluding cross fit training I do at torrington..

I just feel fantastic.. and more determined to continue further.. always challenge myself..

25 Signs You're Succeeding at Life...

We’ve all had days, weeks, months and — for some — even years of dark days and depression. Whether we fall into ruts of self-sabotage, loneliness or insecurity, leading a happy, joyful life can sometimes feel like a chore.

Most of us are so busy trying to dodge life bullets, we forget to stop and appreciate the little victories.

Consider for a moment that you’re doing a tremendous job at life. Living isn’t an easy thing to do, but it can be enjoyable when we start to see the good instead of focusing on the bad.

You are actually living a good life by recognizing these 25 signs:

1. Your relationships are less dramatic than they use to be.
2. You may not have as much money as you want but you live a rich life.
3. You’re not afraid to ask for help and support.
4. Where you live feels like home.
5. You’ve raised your standards.
6. You let go of things that don’t make you feel good.
7. You have moments where you appreciate who you see in the mirror.
8. You’re working on limiting your inner critic and consciously choosing more positive thoughts.
9. You’ve learned that setbacks and failure are part of self-growth.
10. You have a support system that includes people who would do anything for you.
11. You hear “I love you” often, from friends, family or a partner.
12. You’ve accepted what you can’t change, but change what you can’t accept.
13. You don’t complain much, but instead focus on solutions.
14. You don’t blame your parents, and accept them for who they are.
15. You stopped caring about what others think of you.
16. You’re happy for your exes when they move on.
17. You can celebrate others’ successes.
18. You allow yourself to feel your feelings and are comfortable sharing them.
19. You have passions that you pursue.
20. You’re able to accept compliments without deflecting.
21. You have things to look forward to.
22. You have goals that have come true.
23. You have empathy for others.
24. You feel connected to your work.
25. You love deeply and open yourself up to be loved by others.

10 Life lessons from Navy Seal Admiral's commencement speech at UT

I came through this amazing commencement speech by Navy Seal Admiral William H. McRaven today morning.. As usual I was in Monday blues.  This speech helped me to rejuvenate myself and set new goals for my life.  It was a very inspirational speech that everyone should read.  Cos I believe it'll give a new perspective for your life.

I especially love the first advice,

"If you want to change the world, start off by making your bed"..

I felt embarrassed when I read the first life lesson from the admiral.  I thought making the bed is very mundane work better leave for you maid.  How could someone do great things, if they are incapable of making their own bed ??

Read it.. and make your lives more meaningful to the people who lives around you..

http://www.businessinsider.com/10-life-lessons-from-navy-seal-2014-5?utm_source=feedburner&utm_medium=feed&utm_campaign=Feed%3A+businessinsider+%28Business+Insider%29

My thoughts on George R. R. Martin's "A Feast for Crows.."

To be honest I became fascinated with George R. R. Martin's "A song of Ice & Fire" series after I watched the first episode of the HBO tv series.  Since then I bought the books and started reading those and never looked back.  I just finished the fourth installment of the series "A Feast for Crows".. and It's high time I write a review about the book.  Since I became a fan very recently, unlike other die hard loyal fans I was spared the agony of waiting between books.. Apparently there was a five year gap between 3rd and the 4th book of the series.  Well enough of that.. Let me tell about my thoughts of the book..

In the 3rd installment of the series, GRRM killed almost all the interesting characters loved by the fans.  The same way he killed Lord Eddard Stark.  Most of the characters were killed during the infamous "Red Wedding".  So GRRM thought since I have written a successful series for the 4th installment I can write about a quarter of the characters introduce useless and somewhat annoying characters and be unclear about several peoples fate as if it means nothing at all.

Really GRRM.. I say again REALLY ?

I loved the way GRRM told the story in the first three books but fourth book is no way near the standard of the first three books.  Were there no editors involved in this book ?  This is what he gave fans after FIVE freaking long years ?

For example, what happened to Oberyn Martell's bastard children ? Thank god no paragraphs were dedicated to them.. It would have been very painful to read.. What happened to the man who appeared in prologue ? He literally melted a man and GRRM vanished the man much of the same away from the book.. Not sure whether he would appear again as the same way he got vanished in the next book.. 

(Spoiler Alert) Only upside of the book is the fate of Queen Regent (aka Cersei Lannister).  I really enjoyed reading that chapter..

I still love the series and his writing is great.  It felt like he lost his way a bit and I think we need to get a big spotlight and collectively say " Get the fuck over here".  Here being nowhere near Dorne.

Resurrection...

“Only after disaster can we be resurrected. It's only after you've lost everything that you're free to do anything. Nothing is static, everything is evolving, everything is falling apart."

Ya I know!!! I watched Fight Club! And like every other guy out there I like the movie.

I truly believe that you will revive once you are smashed to the ground. I’m not saying it necessarily has to be a major calamity such as the death of a loved one but sometimes surviving a car crash or an insignificant heart break may open our eyes. We start seeing the world with a different standpoint and our notions take a new perspective that may excel our lives.

We see simple examples everyday; friends leave, hearts break, you might fall ill or get divorced ... and the list could go on. Whenever such a thing happens, a little piece inside of you dies... But people only begin to be concerned when they have an experience that shakes their paradigm and pushes them along a different path.

I guess it’s time to re-examine our lives... so you can reflect on what is really important and take action now. Tomorrow may never come!